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Posted on 2010.12.26 at 23:09
My Mood: melancholyMelancholy
Currently Listening to: "Fall" by Eyeshine
Wow...I just noticed I've only had two postings since last Christmas. Really? Wow, I'm worse than I thought! Sorry, everyone!

*crickets chirp*

Yeah, I figured as much.

Well...mostly haven't really felt like updating. I've really been in a...funk the past couple of months. And while I'm not completely over it, I've at least come to accept the bad feelings and tell myself that... Well, no matter how much life may suck, I suppose it could be worse and it's not worth giving up. Or something. >_> Yeah. Moving on.

So, whilst holing myself up in my boondocks-y abode I've just been doing hermit things such as...not being social, and writing a bit. Good news being that I've written quite a bit for my Ichigo story. I checked my last entry and saw I had up to chapter 11 written... Well now I'm up to 24! So that's quite the jump. Shuuhei still hasn't gotten anymore done (I think he's up to chapter...22 or so). Still, it's enough to make me feel better and more secure, because I hate having no stories to post because I worry it'll make me more stressed. Never mind that I don't update much anyway, but...well whatever.

Um...yeah, mostly been working on my Ichigo fic. I just finished reading a Fire Emblem one-shot (well...story, since it was long haha) from Ally, and it's totally spurred me back onto Fire Emblem. Huzzah! So I buckled down and tried to do some planning for my Roy story. I've made a VERY basic in like, one-sentence ...sentences about what I want to go down in each chapter. And that goes up to 31! But remember, that is only could be longer or shorter depending on how the chapters themselves go. So we'll see ^^; I think the problem with Roy is that...his story has a HUGE potential for actually getting finished. And that's the first chapter story that I would've ever even come CLOSE to completing. Sure I have my one-shots, but I have the ends for those planned since they're short. I think I'm just scared of actually ending a FIC's come so far, y'know? I hate to see it end :(

BUT. That's still a long ways away. So if you guys *cough*one*cough* care to see anything specific in Roy's story...let me know. I dunno if I can fit it in, but as always, ideas are welcomed :)

Well...guess that's about it. Just wanted to give a quick update I suppose. Hope everyone is well and that you all had a great holiday!

Merry (belated) Christmas and Happy New Years!

Now Listening To: ...well actually the Eyeshine song from before was in my head, so it's still silence now, technically.


Posted on 2010.08.28 at 14:06
My Mood: calmCalm
Currently Listening to: Nothingggg....just some fishtanks!
So here I am...updating. Since it's been awhile. I never was really good at keeping a diary DX

But anyway! I felt like things have been coming along pretty well so I thought I would let you all know what's up. ('All' probably being, three of you that actually read this, if that. ALAS!) *ahem* MOVING ON. So. Writing has been going smoothly I would like to say. I FINALLY got over my writer's block for my Shuuhei story so I've been blitzing! I'm up to chapter 20! XD HUZZAH! The problem now is...that I have no idea where to go from here :( I only had up to the Fake Karakura now I don't know what to do. I think mostly because I don't know where the manga is going to go (I actually gave in and started reading least the recent chapters XD) so I don't want to be like, KANA KILLED AIZEN only to see that...Aizen disappears to try again or something X_X Oy. But...hopefully it'll be awhile before I post chapter 20 and maybe the manga will have moved on quite a bit that I'll get more ideas ^^; If any of you have something to suggest, let me know!

As far as Ichigo's...I'm up to chapter 11 I think. I originally tried to keep them the same (as in, write a chapter for Shuuhei then write one for Ichigo) but then I went on my Shuuhei blitz and never looked back. I'm not too worried though because I have most of Ichigo's planned, and I like the story a lot that it shouldn't be hard to find motivation for. Not to mention I still have the whole Bleach story line to work like I said, it shouldn't be hard ^^

Thennn the Kaien drabbles. I had a writer's block there as well but I finally got over it (albeit at the expense of a probably horrible few prompts, but oh well DX). I believe I'm up to 85 for those. I could've kept going, but I figured I should ask my readers what kind of prompts they'd like to see more of...just so they don't get to the end and be like, I WANTED MORE SEXY KAIEN, WTF. So...again, any suggestions would be welcome XD

FINALLY there is Roy. I have no idea where to go with his story either, if only because I've reached the limit to where I had planned. Well...more or less. I have his next chapter planned and some general ideas after that...but I have NO IDEA where to go. I really don't want to put him on a hiatus or even end him...but I fear I must. It seems like I could do so much more with him, that's why it's sad DX AGAIN AGAIN, I would love suggestions x3 I aim to please you guys after all! *crickets chirp* Whoever may be out there :(

THEN there are one-shots. I obviously finished Ally's birthday fic, but I still feel like it once I get the motivation I'll write some more scenes for Ike. And I'll also work on a Ranulf spin-off because he is just too cute to forget about XD I also plan on doing another Guy (from Tales of the Abyss) one-shot (though more of a mini-fic these days DX) at some point in time. I'd like to finish a few other things first before I embark on that adventure though. I'm still behind on Ally's birthday because I promised her a Joshua lemon too DX I AM SORRY, ALLLYYYY! I'll try to make it super special awesome to make up for it. ^^ So that's all that I have planned for now. Here it is in list form:

Joshua lemon
Guy mini-fic
Ike add-on
Ranulf one-shot

...And that is PROBABLY in the order that I'll work on them as well. But there's no telling where motivation might strike me from!

OKAY SO. I'm sure I'll copy and paste most of these into their respective stories but for now they will go here. Since Luna is down after all DX LAAAAAAAAAAAAAME. Oh well. Gives me an excuse to do nothing but update I suppose ^^;

As far as my life goes (if anyone is concerned!) there is actually nothing new. Nothing of importance anyway. of my friends is getting married today. I'm not that excited to go for some reason D: I think I'm just SUCH an introvert that I would much rather spend my time writing or playing videogames than going to special shindigs. But...I have an excuse to get pretty, which I always like to do, so I suppose not all it lost XD

Alrighty! So I suppose this is getting rather long. I shall end here. So if anyone has suggestions for any of my stories, feel free to drop a line! I'd be more than happy to take it into consideration ^^ Also, if any of you want to see a teaser (like I sometimes do...just post a few paragraphs from the next chapter) then let me know! It'll maybe hold you guys for a bit until Luna comes back. Just let me know~! Ta ta for now!

Now Listening To: Dad watering the grass!...I think.

EDIT: So I read my last entry, and I had said that I had up to chapter 18 of Shuuhei written. I'm pretty sure this was a lie, seeing as I had recently finished chapter 18 like two weeks ago. So I'm really not sure what I meant, because at that point in time I think I MAYBE had up to 16 written. Or perhaps I meant I have up to 18 planned? I really have no idea. So I just wanted to clear it up so you guys aren't like, "SHE ONLY WROTE TWO CHAPTERS SINCE THE LAST UPDATE?! THAT'S NOT A BLITZ!" But it was more like 6 chapters...cuz I swear I've written more than just two. So I have no idea what I was referring to...but regardless, up to 19 is written and I'm currently working on 20. So I just wanted to clear that up! XD


Posted on 2010.06.05 at 03:13
My Mood: tiredTired
Currently Listening to: "Meant To Live" by Switchfoot
Oh my goodness. I can't believe I haven't updated in so long! DX I'm so sorry, everyone! Here I go and tell everyone to come here but then I don't even keep up with it. I'M HORRIBLE! *dies*

Anywayyy. Um. Well I think I just haven't been in the mood lately to be honest. I went through a funk a few weeks ago and it lasted...about two months. I was just really depressed and didn't want to do much :/ Thus...I didn't post, cuz I didn't feel like it ^^;

I'm doing better now and am in the process of getting a job (hopefully!). I'm a little worried that my updates will go slow after that, so I try to write as much as I can when I can. The good news is that I've gotten a lot written. Well...I guess it depends on what story of mine you read if it's good news or not ^^; I have up to chapter 10 written for my Ichigo story (working on 11) and up to chapter 18 (read: EIGHTEEN!!!) with my Shuuhei story. It's so exciting. I totally found a Shuuhei high and I just rolled with it. I'm not sure how the chapters have turned out (I like it, but I dunno if it's what I was hoping it'd turn out like D:) so...who knows. That's that as far as the stories go.

Unfortunately, I also have a hard time writing for someone when I'm addicted to someone/something else. Annnnd of course I have become addicted to something DX Funny story, really. I was on a website to watch Kateikyo Hitman Reborn! and I somehow managed to misclick and click on a different anime: Kaichou wa Maid-sama! So I read the summary (after seeing a hot guy) and decided to give it a try. Sure enough I got addicted because the main guy is SO HOT. I am madly in love with him at the moment. The problem is that I'm happy with the pairing the anime has with it's hard for me to write a one-shot or something with him. I would feel like I'm not doing him justice cuz I feel like he belongs with her DX (I'm so WEIRDDDD). So anyway, yeah. I'm stuck in a state of quantum indecision...cuz I can't write for the others because I'm addicted to this guy, but I can't write for this guy because I ...just can't. Alas. It is depressing :(

Sooo that's what's up with that. Ummmm. I've been working on one-shots/mini-fics too, which is probably why my updates are slow. I've been working on a Leonardo (from Fire Emblem 10) fic and have a little scene left with him before it's done (yay~). Thennnnn... Yeah. I have a few other one-shots to work on so we'll see how that goes I guess ^^;

So in short it feels like I've been writing a LOT, but at the same feels like I haven't done anything DX I know I haven't posted much lately, but I like to just spread out my it's not THAT much of a gap. Though I think it's just counter-intuitive since I take forever anyway X_X I'm seriously so sorry, guys. I'm...just horrible. *sigh*

Uhhh so yeah, that's that I guess. I just wanted to update and say that I AM still writing, but it's just slow-going. For some reason I have to be in the mood to update too (even though the stories are weird is that? @__@) so that may also be why I haven't updated. I'll try to do something soon, I promise. Sorry everyone!

I hope everyone is doing well! Enjoy summer and I'll try to keep updating so you all can have something to read! XD So until then!

Now listening to: "Bye Bye Beautiful" by Nightwish

Merry Christmas!

Posted on 2009.12.25 at 07:54
My Mood: sickSick
Currently Listening to: Nothing right now. Not a creature is stirring...not even a mouse!
So I wanted to come on here to give you guys updates, but it turned out I forgot my password ^^; Then I tried to get it back but it was like, "CAN'T SEND TO HOTMAIL HUR HUR" and I was all "EFF YOU, YES YOU CAN". And it finally listened and helped me out. That was clearly my Christmas gift from LJ. Thanks, LJ.

Anyway! Merry Christmas everyone! ....assuming you celebrate it. If not, Happy....whatever else you may celebrate XD

As I have mentioned in a few of my updates: I HAVE GRADUATED COLLEGE!!! OH BOY OH BOY x3 Now I can be a lazy bum at home as I take a month or so off. I'm told to start looking for jobs (which is probably a good piece of advice) but if I DO get a job...I don't want to start right away (cuz I don't wanna be like BAM BAM, MOVE ON WITH LIFE), so I don't want to be wasting their time y'know? X_X So I figure I'll take a month or two off then start looking. That way if I get hired I'm fine and if not...well then, just more time for writing and videogames XD

That being said, I really hope I can get back into my writing again. I've been in the mood to write, but sadly I'm still having a writer's block for like...ALL my stories X_X I started on the next Roy chapter but it started out I just have no motivation to finish it. I may just have to say screw it and move on, though. I think the problem with that story is that I don't really have an ending planned out (...well I don't for ANY of my stories to be honest XD) but I only have the next two chapters planned out and...I have no idea where to go from there. So I think I'm scared to work on it because I know it'll come to an end soon X_X BLAHHHH.

Uhh as for the Shuuhei and Ichigo stories...I have quite a few chapters planned out there, I just need to get off my lazy ass...that's all ^^; So hopefully those will be updated soon.

There's not really anything else I'm working on. The Kaien drabbles are kinda slow as well...I need to get working on those two I guess. I wanted to start a KHR one-shot (and by one-shot I mean a 3-or-so chapter fic cuz everything I write is SO DAMN LONG) but that is slow going as well ^^ Meg (GhostKitsune) has gotten me kinda hooked on Axis Powers Hetalia so I MAY write a one-shot or two there...but again it depends on my motivation.

What else...I think that's it as far as updates (or lack thereof X_X) go. I've been SO BUSY lately with school finishing and graduation and my brother's birthday and Christmas and moving out of my apartment....I'm totally run down and have become sick. I think it's a sinus infection which is not fun at all :( But basically, I need a few days to rest...and hopefully I'll get some writing done. But we shall see.

I think that is it for now. Sorry for the bad news, but I am trying! I'll get this stuff done sooner or later...

Again, Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!  XD

Now Listening To: ...errr still nothing.

Posted on 2009.09.27 at 21:08
My Mood: happyHappy
Currently Listening to: "Believe in You" by Gamma from KHR It has definitely been awhile. First off, I'd like to thank Clara and saiyajin_hime for wishing me happy birthday! You guys are totally sweet, and thank you for your kind words from my last post as well x3 I LOVE YOU BOTH!!! not much is new, really. Things are going better with my brother...I think he's still thinking about becoming a pilot, but I'm a little more at ease with it now so...we'll see I guess.

That's about it on the family front. I haven't been writing for my stories lately...IT'S HORRIBLE. But I blame Meg...because she went and got me addicted to Kateikyou Hitman Reborn so I haven't been in a Bleach mood lately. But that is only because I was doing my best to catch up, and now that I have, I believe I might be able to go back and write for my stories again. So we'll see. I'm sure I'll make a few one-shots or something for KHR but nothing has really come to mind yet. But I'm sure something will...eventually. Cuz that's just how I am.

But anyway, uhhh...Yeah, not much to say. Just that I'm currently addcited to KHR and that my Bleach stories will HOPEFULLY be on the move again...soon. I can hope. Once I'm done with my projects this week *sigh*

Anyway, just wanted to give an update since I haven't in awhile. Hope everyone is well and I will hopefully update soon with good news! ^^ Till then~!

Now listening to: "Kokoro no Hoshi" by Uni from KHR

General Update

Posted on 2009.08.21 at 21:15
My Mood: sadSad
Currently Listening to: Dad's oxygen machine...

Sooo I just felt like I should write. I was feeling....really sad today. For no reason. I'd just tear up and think of stupid reasons to cry.

Well....sort of stupid reasons.

My brother hasn't been able to find a job, so he's starting to think about going into the service...which I REALLY don't want him to do. He's so incredibly smart, like 100 times smarter than me...and I'd just hate to see him throw that all away. Plus there's always the risk of getting killed...and he means a lot to me. I just....I wouldn't be able to handle that. At all.

So I dunno. Just thinking about it's kinda got me down : / So I probably won't be able to write for awhile until I get in a better mood. (But with FOS down I suppose it doesn't really matter anyway, ne?). But I'm also moving into college tomorrow (for my last semester! Yay!) and school starts monday...So I'm sure I won't be able to write for awhile.

BUT...As I said, FOS is down, so oh well. I've gotten up to Chapter 8 done for Shuuhei and Ichigo...I can't remember if that's how far I had it last time or not. Eh. Well that's where it stands now.

I'm hoping I'll be more motivated to finish my other stories... Well, not finish, but work on. I'm still on a bump with my Roy story...but hopefully I can hop it and move on X_X

So that's where I stand. I'll still work on the stories as I see fit... And it's probably good FOS is down for the moment *gets shot by random FOS fan* cuz that means I can take a break as least until I get used to school again. And get over my mild Lindsey Depression.

Well that's about it. Just a quick update. Hope all is going well for you guys as well! I'll keep in touch when I can.

Are You Right or Left Brained?

Posted on 2009.08.13 at 14:30
My Mood: impressedImpressed
Currently Listening to: Just da TV.
You Are 60% Left Brained, 40% Right Brained
The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning.
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.

The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
Are You Right or Left Brained?

So....I saw this on Clara's LJ and I decided to take it x3 I figured I was left-brained (being an engineer and all haha) but it's interesting how close together they are. But I guess that comes from me writing stuff as well x3 hahaaaa.

Anyway. Interesting. Just for you guys to know a bit more about me or whatever XD Enjoyyyy~

Also, if you guys wanna take it, lemme know what you got! XD

Chapter 5 Teasers!

Posted on 2009.08.10 at 23:17
My Mood: tiredTired
Currently Listening to: Nothin'
So I've decided that I'll probably post a chapter a least until I get a few more chapters written. I just like to have chapters in reserve so I can spread out updates. Call me weird, but I'd rather have an update  a week rather than an update every day for 5 days...then nothing for another month X_X So sorry if you guys are different (let me know!) but that's just how I roll and what I plan to do.

So anyway. I've just finished chapter 7 for both Shuuhei and Ichigo, and I'm up to prompt 50 for my Kaien drabbles. YAY! I feel so accomplished, I love it x3 So...that's the updates.

Back to what I was talking about. Since I'll update once a week, I'll update both a bit later. But until then, here's a teaser from each to maybe hold you over XD


Paradise Lost Chapter 5Collapse )


Subliminal Self Chapter 5Collapse )



Anyway. Let me know what you guys think x3 Thanks for all of the feedback and reviews so far. I love you allll! 


Posted on 2009.08.06 at 13:23
My Mood: optimisticOptimistic
Currently Listening to: Nothing right now!
Hello hello!

Well, I haven't written in awhile, so I figured I would write some UPDATES!

I seriously have never been this motivated before, and I LOVE IT!!! x3 I love Bleach and forever will <3

HOWEVERRRR....yeah, I feel bad for my fans who don't like Bleach :( I really need to work on  my other stuff, but it's so terribly hard to write when I'm not motivated. And it's just gonna come out crappy. So...I dunno. I'm in a Bleach mood now, but hopefully once I pump a few more chapters out, maybe I can write for my other stories.

Also, I'm going to be heading back to school on the 22nd...I'm THINKING this semester won't be too hard, so hopefully I'll have more time to write. When I'm at home, I just don't like writing when others are around. So this way when I'm alone, I can just focus on myself and be happy x3 long as the homework is done of course. But like I said, it shouldn't be bad. My LAST semester was a bitch so I doubt it'll be as bad as that. But who knows.

Anyway! Ummm yeah. Updates. I have up to chapter 6 done for Paradise Lost (Ichigo) and am currently working on chapter 6 for Subliminal Self (Shuuhei). As  I said, I like to spread out my updates, so I'll post chapter 4 for these in a few days...just to keep you all on your toes x3 But I'll post some teasers perhaps just to keep you guys entertained.

I also have...about up to chapter 36 done for my Kaien drabbles. As I said, I post 5 a day so...those'll be coming up pretty fast. So I'd best get to work on some more I suppose X_X

I'm also in the process of working on my sequel to 69 (my Shuuhei one-shot). I'm during the lemon part, and for some reason those always take me forever to write...cuz I have to be in the mood and all : / I have been seriously working on this for like, 8 months now. I'm hoping to get it done soon. It's very close to being done. I'm just being lazy ^^; SORRY, SHUUHEI FANS!

Um, so yeah. That's about it. Nothing more for now I suppose.

Semi-random thought for the day: Some of you may be curious about my title for this page: Sacred Tears and Fallen Hopes. It probably sounds like I am emo (though that may not be far from the truth :P) but there be stories behind them. Well not really. One of my favorite games for the PS1 is Star Ocean: The Second Story. Two weapons from that game are the Sacred Tear and the Fallen Hope. I thought these names were super cool, so the former has been my internet name ever since, the latter being a back up. And they just sound desperate and pretty...which is why I made them my title.

Cool huh?

Sure. Alright, anyway. That's it for now. I'm going back to hopefully finish another Shuuhei chapter and keep pressing on. Thank you all for your support and reviews! IT MOTIVATES ME AND KEEPS ME HAPPYYYY!!! x3

Now listening to: "Sakura Biyouri" by Mai Hoshimura

~Chapter 3 Teasers~

Posted on 2009.07.31 at 19:51
My Mood: amusedAmused
Currently Listening to: "Kansha" by Real Street Project
Soooo since FOS is down, I have decided to post a little 'teaser' to chapter 3 of my Shuuhei and Ichigo stories x3 SO YOU GUYS CAN'T SEE IT UNTIL FOS GETS BACK UP! Sad day indeed : (

Anyway, here we go! XD

Subliminal Self Ch.3Collapse )

Paradise Lost Ch.3Collapse )

...Well there ya go! Enjoy! ;D

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